emma. swittuff tu apa ? *sorry tetibe rasa nak tau.

swittuff. sweet tooth. :) ske mkn ggula.

Ask me anything . shoot !

ayie and lil baby monster

ive made ur tears falls. im so sorry ayie. im so fucking sorry. i miss u a lot bro. i miss u so much that it hurts. i miss u so much that every time something reminds me of u, my eyes flowed with tears. i miss u a lot. there are times that i wish that ur here. there are time that i wish that u were never gone. i wish that ur here, sitting next to me. eating all the rice and left the main part. u always say that ur saving the best for last. u would always be there listening to me babbling about stuff that doesnt really matter. aboout classes, about friends, about health. i talks a lot kn ayie. and u would just sit there and listen. listen to every words. laugh ur asses of with each and every jokes. even though it isnt funny at all. you would ask me where would we go next, and i dont have the answer. so we would just go around and around the block until we have someplace to go to. that one time that u refuses to talk to me, that is the hardest part. i need to talk to u and i want u to listen. when u did come to penang a few days back, i cried. i just miss u so much that i cant believe my eyes that ur there standing next to me. i wish u would never have to go. but u said that u got work to do. i didnt have the chance to tell u about my life here without u. i didnt have the chance to share my part of the stories. i didnt have the chance to crack jokes and listen to ur laughter. when i finally realize that ur really here, ur about to leave. leaving me here. god. i miss u ayie. when u finally drive away, i cried. i could only shake ur hands before u leave. i dont want to be around u too long, as i would definitely cry my eyes out. im sorry ayie. im really sorry for being such a baby. im sorry. please forgive me. :( from the bottom of my hearts. i miss u.

xoxo

ur lil sis
emma

p/s: lenkali dtg bawak awek. jgn sorg sorg. keta tu besar. haaa. :)

unfair

life may be unfair. but thank god as we can still breath. we can still see the sun rises early in the morning. we can still see the faces of the people that we love the most. we can still laugh with our friends. share hugs and kisses with families. we can still see the smiles on our friends faces. make jokes and laugh our asses off. be grateful. i need to learn to be grateful. even though there are times that i wish i was never born. but no one have the perfect life. literally. no one. no matter how messed up your life is, there are people who loved you. for who you really are. maybe you wont realize it now, but when those people are gone, the pain is unbearable. thank your friends. thank your family. thank you love ones. thank everyone. for loving you. thanks guys.for reading. :)

silly

im just silly little me. :)

20

im 20 years old. wow. time does fly fast. macam baru sekejap je. macam baru semalam aku kena marah sebab xbasoh kasut skolah. macam baru semalam aku kena puji dan dapat a dalam kelas muzik. macam baru semalam aku main kejar kejar atas meja lam kelas. macam baru semalam aku jumpa kawan kawan aku skang. lam 20 taun ni, aku banyak dah blajar sal selok belok lam idup ni. ada benda yang kita kna buat. ada benda yang kita jangan buat langsung. kalau boleh putar balik masa, ntah ap la yang jadi kat aku. kalau boleh putar balik masa, aku tak kan jumpa kawan kawan aku yang awesome ni. oleh sebab tu, aku rela hidup macam ni dr hilang kawan kawan. seriously, kawan kawan aku memang awesome. memang peneman hidup aku slama 20 taun ni. dyeorang la yang dengar segala apa yang aku nak luah. awesome kottttt. yes, i am very proud of my friends. kawan kawan aku dr seluruh pelusuk malaysia. dunia tu tak lagi la. tak cukup kabel. macam macam ragam yang aku nampak. macam macam kerenah. but they are my friends. and friends stick together until the end. like it or not, ur stuck with me. :)
20 taun. umor da berganda ganda. xsangka. sekejap gila kot. ishh. cam tak sangka plak aku dah tua. perangai mengalahkan kanak kanak ribena lam tadika. buruk kn. bila la aku nak mature ni. huh.


oh oh. ntw, thanks for the wish guys. jenuh gak ah nk reply. berpeluh cam lari marathon dah aku. thanks guys. u made my day, :)

low self esteem.

some of my friends have this things with low self esteem. i have this problem too. but guys, we have different strength. different priorities in life. different problems. guys, i love u all because of who u are. please. im not making this up. i love u guys. seriously. i will always be here. always. :)

sombong

ramai orang cakap aku sombong. aku sombong ke? sorry la kalau korang anggap aku sombong. aku tak sengaja. mintak maap ye. kalau aku tak bertego tu sorry la. tak kan la semua orang aku nak tego. letey la aku kan. lagi skali, sorry.

daddy

ayah, i have hurt u a lot since im born kn. please dont lie. i can see it in your eyes. 

ayah, im not the perfect little girl who u always dream of having. i am not miss goody goody two shoe. i have lied to u a lot. i am not the best daughter. comparing me and kakak, there are a huge, i mean really really huge difference between us. i am not smart ayah, but im struggling. i really am. im trying to be the best for u. to make u proud but somehow, things doesnt go along. shit happens. im blaming myself for making u cry. im blaming myself for making u think about all those silly things that ive done. u shouldnt have been thinking about me. u should not be worrying about anything right now. i am not a good daughter ayah. im sorry. i just want to say that im sorry for all the things that ive done. i love u ayah. eventhough we dont even talk much. i miss all those things u have done when i was little. sending me to school before u go to work. all those jokes. all those laughter. we dont have that anymore. 

i miss u. :( 

happy fathers day.

cinta lagi

what is love actually? who knows. people experience it differently. td sesi basuh membasuh dah start. yes, jodoh kita sapa yang tau. maybe anak makcik kantin masa kita sekolah rendah dulu adalah jodoh kita. maybe mamat yang kita jumpa kat tepi jalan tu jodoh kita. love is blind people. who knows. kn. :)

sometimes, my boy-friends asks, what does a girl wants in a boy. seriously, i don't really know. semua orang lain lain. ad orang yang suka laki macam james bond. ad yang suka laki ala ala shah rukh khan. kalau semua sama, susah la. memang terkontang kanting la laki yang tak memenuhi syarat tu kan. kesian beliau. memang susah kot. to me, aku nak laki yang just nice. he doesn't need to be handsome or good looking, i just want someone who is nice and kind. sugar and spice, cam lam cita power puff girls. i want someone spontaneous. full of surprises. cam lam cita cinta cinta tu. alaaaa. yang bajet romantik tu la. :) aku tak minat sangat la fancy stuff. aku just nak that guy to show effort. to show me that he loves me. sape la yang tak nak di manja weyyy. even laki kadang kadang nak gak kena belai. kadang kadang bole la. kalau slalu sangat, xpyah la. semak kot. some girls suka laki yang romantik. ad plak pompuan yang suka laki yang lawak. ad plak pompuan yang suka laki yang serious. everyone is different. and everyone have different interests. tuhan ciptakan kita dengan jodoh masing masing. dengan hala tuju masing masing. maybe ko tak dapat orang yang ko nak sekarang, maybe nanti. ko jumpa someone better. who knows. just dont ever give up. please. love is everywhere. u just need to find it. :)

semak

semak mata aku memandangsambil melihat orang orang yang terlalu obses dengan pasangan masing masing tapi tak sedar yang dyeorng tu da sampai memuakkan orang sekeliling. yes. xsalah nak tunjuk yang ko sayang. tapi tak kan la nak post kat facebook pnye wall.
contoh :

*sayang, honey nak mandi ni. honey rindu sayang la. sayang tunggu honey k? kalau honey da abes mandi, honey gtau sayang tau. tunggu k? honey sayang sayang. mwwwwahh! i love u!*

hadoyai. privacy la sikit babe. benda ni bole anta msg kn? handphone ad kn? yes. memang bukan tempat aku nak complain. maybe aku pon ad buat. sape tau. my mistake. harap harap xde la. and yes, memang aku takde hak pon nak complain. but dude, annoying kot.

ppppppppppppplease la nyahhh.
benda macam tu tak perlu nak tunjuk. orang tua skang ni makin maju. ramai yang dah ada facebook. even my parents ad. so, benda macam tu, kalau orang orang tua tengok, kan kena maki. percuma je dapat sepinggan bebelan dan caci maki masak cili padi. skati la guys, kalau nak kena, try la. :) good luck.

lelaki.

lelaki susah nak cari awek yang bole nak accept kawan kawan lelaki tersebut. benda ni aku bincang dh. memang. ktorg xde keja. baik bincang pasal final ke, ap ke. kan kan kan. :)

ntah la. aku nampak banyak je pompuan yang bole buat camtu. tapi aku akui ada gak pompuan yang tak ley nak terima kawan kawan pakwe beliau. ad gak yang terlampau menjaga sampai tak ley nak renggang langsung. susah gak la camtu. rimas tau tak. give space la. kalau dye btol sayang ko, xkan lari la. xyah takut. have faith, will u? laki ni cam pompuan gak la. kawan tu amat penting. sangat sangat penting. macam isi dengan kuku, macam aur dengan tebing, dyeorg memang tak ley dipisahkan. guys really treasure their friendship. so girls. try to accept these guys. when u cant accept his friends, u should just go and find some other guys. because these guys, they stick like glue. :)