Tuesday, 24 August 2010

who is your bff?

my bff will who she or he is. no need to tell. no need to brag.

ask ask ask ask

Friday, 20 August 2010


tuhan, bagi aku kekuatan nak hadapi semua ini.

everyday and every second that passes by, makes me weak. the pain is unbearable. ulang alik ke hospital bagaikan satu mision yang agak agak xkan tercapai. sakit yang di tahan tahan. senyuman yang ada, palsu. lukisan semata mata. i should be grateful. sakit aku bukan ada apa apa kalau di banding dengan orang orang yang di hospital haritu. uncle cina yang manis senyum nya, duduk di atas kerusi roda. ketiadaan sebelah kaki hingga ke paras lutut membataskan perjalanan. kesian kan. aunty melayu yang hanya mampu tersenyum menawarkan simpati melihat aku walaupun nyatanya keadaan nya lebih teruk dari aku. kasihankan mereka. ambulans datang dan pergi. kereta bersepah di tempat parking. manusia berkeliaran dengan tujuan masing masing. tuhan saja tau.

aku mahu sihat seperti dulu. sekarang dalam otak. hanya ada satu. raya ini. aku xnak keluarga aku menangis kerana aku. berbahagialah. aku x apa apa. :)

god give me a whole lot of tears to make me feel better. every sad post that i have written, ive cried while i have written it down. i dont have the strength to be myself anymore. only fake smiles that i have draw on my face. ive tried to be happy. i am happy. with all my lovely friends. my house mates, class mates, besties. u are the best!

Wednesday, 18 August 2010


1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.

2. Guys love flirts.

3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.

4. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.

5. "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.

6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

7. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.

8. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.

10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.

11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.

12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!

13. Guys cry!!!!!!!!

14. Don't provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.

15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.

16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.

17. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.

18. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind!" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.

19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.

20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

21. When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you're asking him to do you a favor, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for you.

22. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow."

23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.

24. Guys hate gays!

25. Guys love their moms.

26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.

27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.

28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.

29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.

30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.

31. Like Eve, girls are guys EUR™ weaknesses.

32. Guys are very open about themselves.

33. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.

34. No guy is bad when he is courting.

35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.

36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.

37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.

41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.

42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one. 43. Guys virtually brag about anything. 44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.

45. Guys think too much.

46. Guys' fantasies are unlimited.

47. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!

48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!

49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.

50. It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more.

51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.

52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up.

53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.

54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power. 55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.

56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll probably see that he is nervous.

57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.

58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

59. Guys don't really have final decisions.

60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.

61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.

62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.

63. Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.

64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

65. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.

67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.

68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.

69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!

70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

71. A guy's friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.

72. Don't be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.

73. Don't be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you'll be surprised.

74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.

75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.

76. Guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well.

77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.

78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.

79. Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.

80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they'll realize they're wrong. 81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too stubborn to deal with it.

82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.

83. Guys' weakest point is at the knee.

84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.

85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.

86. When a guy looks at you, either he's amazed of you or he's criticizing you.

87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.

88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.

89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you're with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.

90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!

92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.

93. When a guy says he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.

94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.

95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.

96. Girls are allowed to touch boys' things. Not their hair!

97. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.

98. Guys hate girls who overreact.

99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships

Saturday, 14 August 2010


skrang aku hilang tempat berpaut.

aku hilang org yang aku syg. hilang petunjuk dlam hidup. aku rindu dia. aku nangis malam malam rindukan dia. aku nangis. aku tau aku mmg kuat nangis. aku mengaku. tp aku rindu.
aku sayang dia. sayang sangat sangat. aku jatoh cinta dgn dia sebelum ni.
sekarang aku hilang dia.
aku jadi buntu. buntu.

Saturday, 7 August 2010

emma naziera

i want to be a new person with a new chapter of life.


Thursday, 5 August 2010

this post is what i have copied from a friend.
and it makes me cry.

Saya suka tengok jari awek saya...
Cantik betul... Sungguh!
Sampai takut nak pegang...
Bukan takut patah...
Tapi takut nanti jari kitorang tak boleh tolong each other
Di satu hari yang giler forever depan yang maha Esa...

Saya suka tengok rambut awek saya...
Cantik betol... Sungguh!
Sebab tu saya belikan tudung...
Bukan sebab jeles orang lain tengok jugak....
Tapi takut nanti terbakar dek api neraka
Di suatu hari yang giler forever

Saya suka tengok body awek saya....
Cantik betol...

Sebab tu saya belikan dia telekong
Supaya mase die jumpa dengan Kekasih die Yang Utama
Dia lagi cantik dan berseri menghadap Nya.
Saya pun tumpang dapat pahala. Pheh syoknye...

Saya sedih tengok awek saya
Tak tido, tak makan rindu kat saya...
Saya pun macam tu jugak,
Ada problem yang sama..
Die tanya apa ubatnya?
Saya pun bagi die Quran untuk penenang jiwa...
Semoga lebih cintakan Nya dari saya...

Saya sedih tengok awek saya
Selalu pesan macam-macam kat saya...
"Makan, minum, drive elok-elok tau..
Nanti awak sakit saye susah ati bla bla bla bla" katenya....
Tapi bila tengok movie sama-sama burn asar maghrib gitu
Die tak kata satu aper pun...
Berdosanye saya....

Kesimpulannya saya memang sayang dia....
Nak jumper die giler forever...
Yang forever punye forever...
Di dunia dan akhirat terutamanya,
Janji nak share heaven sama-sama...
Bahagia selamanya...

Semoga kami saling mengingati,
Dosa sendiri pun infiniti...
Nak tanggung dosa dia lagi pulak lepas ni...
Semoga kami menginsafi diri...
Ya Allah ampunkanlah kami.....
Semoga kami dapat bersama selamanya nanti...

Sunday, 1 August 2010

selamat hari raya

raya datang lagi. puasa xmo. raya mo. :) apakah itu?

teringat kat kawan kawan. cuti pun seminggu dua. nak jumpa pun x sempat. nak kena balik kampung. jumpa nenek dan datok. siapa tau kalau hayat x panjang. xmo mintak. just nak bg peringatan. rindu atok n nenek. xrapat dengan mak bapak. nenek la penawar hati, pengubat rindu. nenek la tempat mengadu. tempat nanges. paha siapa ag tempat aku tido klau bukan paha nenek. nenek skang da tua. sakit sakit. kaki da x kuat. xda sapa kat umah d kampung nak jaga. nenek kna pegi cari kayu api. kna pegi siang ikan. kna pegi jaga kedai. kna bg ayam itek makan. smata mata nk cri duit. kesian nenek. nenek, tgu k. nnti ema cr duit banyak banyak, nenek pg tunai haji k.
syg nenek. rindu nenek.

jangan risau. insyallah ema balik raya ni.
kalau aral x melintang. kalau lembu x melintas.
insyallah ema slamat sampai.


sekarang. kita da tau sapa kawan dan sapa yang bermuka muka. bila apa apa jadi, semua tak ambik peduli. lepas. bila kita sakit, mula buat buat busy. knapa? aku tak paham. do i treat u people that way? kalau betol, im sorry and do forgive me. gtau aku. biar aku brubah. sapa yang xmo brubah jd baik? aku nak. kawan kawan. korg smua penting dalam hidup aku. every single one. in every single way. kalau boleh. aku xmau ilang kawan macam korang. tp biar la. sekarang. bila aku sakit. nak mintak tolong. semua lari bertempiaran. nyorok bawah tempurung. kita tak kan tahu apa dalam hati orang lain. kita tak kan tahu apa yang orang lain fikir. entah la. semua ni macam tak da makna.