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my post seems dull and down. yes. i am depressed. i keep my feelings to myself most of the time. i just dont know how to express myself. so, i just write it down and that make me feel a whole lot better. much much better. plus, there are not much things in my blog to be read. but somehow, i am thankful that some of u do read it and even give comments on posts. i appreciate it so much. thanks for reading peeps. :)

susah

memang susah sangat sangat nak puaskan hati semua orang. lagi lagi orang yang korang xsuka. nak buat camna. hmm. susah bla kita nak kena buat benda yang betul tapi nak kena susahkan kawan. kita susah payah nak puaskan hati kawan kawan dan sahabat handai kita, tapi dyeorg plak buat xtau je kat kte. kte tolong je dyeorg ble dyeorg susah. tapi bila kita plak susah. dyeorg buat muka taik cirit je pandang kita. memang ramai yang buat camtu kn. masalah btol la. leteh bila semua yang kita buat, dyeorg buang cmtu je. buat baik salah, x buat baik salah. abes tu nak buat cmne? nate beruk sungguh mereka itu. letih kan bila kawan tikam belakang. cube la tikam depan depan. dapat gak la kite tangkis. ni tikam belakang, mana la nak nampak. ish. susah.

time

there are times that i wish i could undo. times that i wish i could erase. there are time that i wish that it was just a dream. everyone makes mistakes. everyone regrets. but somehow we make the same mistake all over again. wtf kan. sakit tu kena terima banyak banyak kali. kalau boleh pusing balik masa, memang dah pusing dah. tapi memang tak kan dapat. bila pikir pikir balik, memang dah buat banyak salah. lagi lagi kat family. dah bertimbun timbun. samapai mati pon tak kan habis. memang la slalu minta maaf. tapi boleh ke orang tu nak maafkan? mana la kita nak tau. kalau dia tak maafkan? kan sampai mati kita kena tanggung dosa. manusia. memang ada sifat tak puas hati. memang ada sifat berdendam. lagi lagi kalau pompuan. cepat jeles. dengan apa apa pun nak jeles. jiran sebelah beli sofa baru, dye pon nak beli sofa baru gak. bukan ada orang nak dudok pon kn. buang duit je. buat semak rumah. ish. jiran sebelah beli rantai emas, dye pon nak gak. ishh. pakai banyak banyak, last last kena ragut. sape susah? haaa. sendiri naya. tapi manusia tetap manusia. memang macam tu.

kalau ada time machine kan best. :) tapi bukan melanggar hukum alam ke?

i am not the prettiest girl in the world. i am not the sweetest of them all either. i am not the richest or the wisest.
i am not the fairest or the nicest. i am not the skinniest and also not the healthiest. i am just me.

somehow, i just  wish that i would disappear. just like the wind. and no one could remember me. no one who could remember my mistakes. no one who would know me.

people talk.

easy for you to say everything is going to be ok , when the shit is not on you .

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rumah

balik rumah
bilik aku bsepah gila macam tongkang pecah. gila la. dah xley nak tengok lantai dah. ish ish ish. rasa malas gila nak kemaskan bilik. saat saat ni la paling bes kalau ad orang gaji. ish. xbaik kn kn kn. tp leteyyyy. hahaha. oh ya. nak cat bilik. tu pon kalau rajin la. hmm. nak cat warna merah. dan hitam. waahhh. bes bes bes. kn kn kn.


beza tinggal kat sarawak dan tinggal kat penang macam langit dan bumi.
bilik kat penang kongsi dengan kawan kawan. bilik kat sarawak aku sorang yang punya. bes gak ah kongsi bilik beramai ramai. macam muda muda remaja dok hostel. dapat sembang sembang, dapat gelak gelak. dapat tengok movie ramai ramai. walaupon kenkadang gelak tu terlebih. jerit tu ap lg. ishh.burok pngai. bunyi da lain macam. ish ish ish. kalau ramai ramai. xla takut sangat waktu malam. gelap gelita je rumah tu.at least kte tau ad org kat sebelah. kalau orang la. ishhhh. tamo tamo.

bab makan plak. xyah cta la. makan 24 jam. kalau kat malaysia ad sumo. da bole menang ni. makan kat rumah memang heaven. makan la sepuas hati. kalau habis, masak ag. bahan bahan dah sedia. duit xyah nak klua. xyah nak makan maggi sgt la kan. sehat skit. hahahahah! sehat la sangat. makan tdo makan tdo. ish. kalau kat rumah sewa memang susah. kalau xde duit dalam wallet, xyah klua la. dok rumah je. kalau kua g 7e tu, bkn nye ad atm. kna la gerak g atm yg terdekat, kat ptronas. wahhh. jaoh gila. tension nyah.

bab kenderaan plak. kalau kat rumah sewa, nk kena sewa kereta sewa. kalau kat rumah sendiri, nk naik keretaaaa... ap murid murid? kereta mak ayah. betulllll.. hahahahaha. minyak xyah isi.mintak duit mak ayah. duit belanja mintak kat mak ayah. kadang kadang kna saving gak. xde duit kn. kalau kat rumah sewa, kalau kereta sewa xde, dok la kat rumah tu. haaa. tgu janggut tumboh panjang sejengkal. memang bosan gila. ish ish ish.


walau ap ap pon, cane beza nya rumah sendiri ngn rumah sewa, aku rindu rumah sewa lebeyh. rumah sewa tempat kawan duduk dan lepak. gelak kuat kuat. gurau senda. manja manja. bermadu kasih asmara. ish. melalut. but still,i miss all that. hanging out with friends. i miss my house mates.

kereta

perlu ke kereta? macam x je. naik bas pon bole. tipu la kalau aku cakap aku xnak kereta. tapi, klau pk pk balik. bnyak lagi yang kna pk wlaupun da dapat kereta. minyak, condition. nk maintain. hmm. ssh kn.aku pon pening. haiyoookkk.. memang nak. tp membebankan kn? ntah la. ssh nak ckp. ad baik dan ada buruknya. bia la. ad rezeki, ada la tu.

:(

please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please.

home sweet home.

i still cant understand. where is home actually. is it the place where we were born, the place that we grow up, the place where we spend a lot of time there or the place where we feel most comfortable?

i miss penang. somehow, my heart does not belong here. i miss my friends. i miss them a lot. :)

next semester, ayie wont be around. he wont be there to take me for lunch or dinner. he wont be there to listen to me stories and jokes. he wont be there to wipe my tears when i cry. i am missing him. a lot. ive gotten close to him this semester. 1 semester is enough to make me love him as a brother and a very dear friend indeed. somehow, i need to learn to let him go. it was for his future. for his future family. he is my big bro. and i need to understand. he is doing this for a good cause. 

so emma, stop crying. k? he will be fine. :)