hmm

it have been a long time since ive updated this blog. what to write? 

yesterday ive gone to the hospital for another checkup. im tired of this. i really am. im tired of being sick. i just want to be healthy. i just want to be the old me. before all this happen. im tired of having this pain every now and then. i just want to be healthy. please. i dont want to go back to the hospital. i dont want to have to wait 3 long hours for my turn at the hospital. i dont want doctors to check and tell me that something is wrong with me. i dont want to be sent to another doctor for another checkup. i dont want to go for scanning or other shitty shit that they do. i want to spend all my time waiting for the doctor on other stuff. i dont want to be operated one more time. i dont want more scars on my body. i just want all this to stop. i just want all this to end. im tired. im tired of all this pain. i cant sleep. waking up in the middle of the night. im tired. please.